The Spot

Point is she's *gasp* right. Wow, life is pretty good.

Actually, life is very good. It's nigh on impossible to write about, because a whole lot of that has to do with Dan. You just can't do justice to some things [love and other bliss] in writing, if at all. But here's a short try.

It's like listening to your new favourite song. The minute I wake up in the morning it's like hearing those opening chords. You know something really good is happening right now, to you. You know it's good because you've heard it before. It's familiar but still exciting [ooh, I love this part!] and it makes you feel so good just to hear/see/feel it over and over. Like wrapping yourself in a warm blanket. Like listening to your favourite song.

And then, once in a while, you look up and realize you're they're favourite song too. Everything reflected... it's good to be heard.

So that's why life is good. School [which feels like the totality of my life at the moment] is a challenge to be mastered. But it fits really well. I'm happy, when I remember to think about how far I've come.

Which brings me to Ali's blog, and Mom's point #3. Can you believe I spend this much time at school? That I study this much? That I actually manage to do something physical every once in a while? These are the things that used to bother me the most [still do, actually]. I've never felt I work hard enough, that I study enough or that I'm quite healthy enough.

I'm not being self-indulgingly self-centered here. Think about whatever it is that bothers you most about yourself. Or, what bothered you most 5 years ago. Are these the same problems? I do still have the still worries - academics, work ethic and health - but it's not the same problem. Years of trying have made a difference. I'm better at this than I used to be.

--> To be continued... again.

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